So.. I’ve been thinking about writing a kid’s book. I’ve always wanted too and I think its time I give it a final go ya know. I think its time I try this and see where it goes. I love to see kids faces light up when they laugh at something funny in a book. The fact that they learn is importent too!! Anyone have any idea’s for what kinda story I could write? I’d like that if I could get some support on this idea please. Ty. Hope someone reads this.
…Takes deep breathe…
I’m so confused about things in this life..
Two people never intend to really fall in love right away. Any two people (gay, lesbian, straight or bi) You can’t blame us for finding love even when to you it isn’t the right kind of love. We didn’t do this to hurt any of you or cause you to be angry at us because we did something you don’t approve of. If you could only see that we’re really happy, we are who were supposed to be with for the rest of our lives. Why don’t they just look past all that and be happy for us?
My bestie recently came out of the closet about her realionship with a girl. And also my bestie is married. yes i said marred. I gotta admnit I’ve very very proud of her. She did the right thing by telling them, even if it was the hardest thing she’s ever had to do. I’m happy for her, accept her and love her no matter who she is with. And the very thought of telling my parents that I’m dating a girl scares the little hell outta me.
I’m pretty sure I know what would happen if I opened up about it. I’d rather not go into detail. It scares me that they would probably try to make me stop seening her. Which I wouldn’t!! ( Hence thats why I’m planning to move out.) I know writing them a letter and leaving it for them isn’t the best way to tell them i’m moving. I just think its the best I can do. I don’t think I should be judged for it.
I love her and I know to them that’s the wrong thing to do. But u know what?? It’s MY LIFE!!! fuck them and their judgements and hard words (that I’ll eventually have to listen to some day soon.) But I love her and I feel so right with her so whole. More whole then I have in my entire life. My life’s not that bad. I mean yes my past was and I still deal with that EVERY DAMNED DAY!! I make it through my days and get past it all one day at a time. Autumn makes things so much better for me. There isn’t another one like her in this world. So I gotta great catch 😉
Confused about this world and life. It was mega easier as a child. You didn’t have a care in the world. I know I always said I wanted to grow up, now I wish I could take that back and do it all over. This world is so crazy and insane now days. What happened?? I feel like everything’s just gonna come tumbling down and there won’t be a damn thing anyone can do. I watch old movies like ( i love lucy and little house) I sometimes wish we could go back just a litle bit to those days kinda rolled all into one. Ik that sounds silly and doesn’t make any sence. Nobody has to even understand what I’m sayin I’m just rambling venting.
Autumn loves me sooooo much i dont know what id do without her and she says she doesnt know what she would do without me. We cant wait to be in each other’s arms and how once we are together we are gonna be glued to each other. We cant wait to be together cuz we will finally be together together
…. So after almost ending things with Auumn on Halloween over a stupid arguement. We talked things over (via txt) because that’s what we do first before we deicde what to do afterwards. Things are good now we’re back to the way things were. And I’ll admit the make up sex was pretty damn nice hehe ;).
Ssshhhh… don’t tell Autumn I said that.
My hunny was really upset lastnight so I tod her to tell me what was wrong. Frist they changed her hours on her again so she is working 7:30 till 1 or 4. She isn’t happy about that. She’s having a little trouble at work though the kids are treating the teachers like shit!!! Pushing them, hitting them shoving them, running into them and almost pushing her to the ground and knocking her into things. That I don’t like one bit. I told Autumn that, that isn’t right that she should say something to these ppl and she told me all they care about is money!! I’m just shocked and so angery with how they are treating them and her. She shouldn’t have to take that kinda abuse. I just don’t know what to do with that or what to tell her anymore.
Also her friend Carla (aka drama carla) is being kinda a pain in the ass. Treating her like crap too!! Ugh!! We were kinda right in the starting of doing something (blushes red) and Carla wouldn’t stop txting her and neither of us was very happy becuz well we wanted each other and Carla wanted to be a pain at the moment. But Autty got rid of her so we finally got to be with each other. I wish January would come fast ya know? Gosh I just wanna be already to lay in her arms in our bed, to watch her sleep hear her laugh!! Ik times are tough I really believe her and I deserve this though we’ve waited so long for the right person to come along. Now that we’re a couple we should get to have our turn. All of our other friends have someone they are with, happy and kids. So we should get that too!! Damn it!!
My halloween was alright. Nothing exciting just sat at home watching movies which was good with me. Yup Yup. Not much of a dress up kinda girl. But if i see something I like i’ll probably put it on. Next year I might just have to go into a store and try on costums just for the plan hell of it. Could be fun!! Maybe I’ll bring Autty with me 🙂 😉 Twice the fun then. Idk what I’m gonna do today I know I should get outside and get the blow up turkey up I mean how hard can it be right? This weekend is deer hunting. No, I’m not going I haven’t gone in year’s. I do know that I’m gonna move alot of my boxed stuff outta my room and into the grain bin because they are taking up too much room and I need to get them out so I can get ready for the night that I leave.
Thats another subjet I’m still dealing with. I’d just rather not get into it now becuz I’d better go I gotta give our dog zoe a bath. Ughh dad keeps letting her in the damn house i told him to leave her OUT!!!